04 October 2010

Being Superficial.

I have been sitting here for over an hour and didn't know what to write about. So I checked other blogs and I checked Facebook - yes, I know, I am a little obsessed! So here it comes, my very smart post of the day - because I am trying to write a little more often than in the past! Hoping that one day I will get more readers!

"Never apologize for what you feel. It's like saying sorry for being real."

How do you like that? Well, it brings memories back from when I first came to this country and was still in my 'complaining' mood and 'everything-is-bad-in-America'!!! Isn't that called being superficial? Well, back in the day, we, my foreign friends and me, were of the opinion that ALL American are superficial. Of course now, ten years later, I don't think that anymore. For one, we as human beings are all different. Then I believe that in every nation, there are all kinds of people, so every nation has superficial people. Being German, I grew up being very tight = meaning we Germans can be a little introverted. We like to stay to ourselves and separate private and public life very much. I heard that from a friend about six years ago - I had alot of time to think about it, and now, I actually have to admit that it is true. I know that I have changed alot over the past ten years, and especially since my cancer experience. Once I opened up about my feelings and my hurts that resulted from that illness, I felt so much better. Now, I share my thoughts, I share my dreams, and I share my fears.

I still believe it is also true: to have one very good friend is better than a million shallow ones! But if we don't open up to others, how can we find out what is really behind the curtain???

Also, I am a very honest person. To me, laying is the greatest sin! (just a personal opinion!) So I usually tell what I think and feel. I have been told that this scares people away! And I have friends that actually like this virtue about me. I am sorry for those that are scared, but I think that might be (???) due to their own insecurity? I am not sure. But I will not change for anybody because first of all, I have to live with myself. Then with my family, then with my friends! And then with all the strangers that might become my friends one day.....

What do you think?


C. Beth said...

You have definitely opened up which I think is wonderful!

I think lying is wrong. I also think that we can be careful what we say. Sometimes when what we say will hurt someone's feelings and not have a good effect, it's best not to say anything. NOT saying the truth isn't necessarily lying; but saying something that is NOT true is lying...if that makes sense.