23 May 2011

Daily Verse and a review of my Resolutions

"Whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father who is in heaven will also forgive you your transgressions."

Mark 11:25 (NASB)

Never thought of it that way! I mean it makes total sense, and I am sure that I must have heard or read it before, but I never put one and one together. Sad, really, but I guess sometimes I just leave my brain in bed when dealing with the kiddos...

That said, I remembered my resolutions, or rather attempts to better myself. In regard of my faith, I wanted to read more of the bible - so one day, I can say I have read the bible from cover to cover. So I signed up to receive a daily verse via email - so that I am forced to read the bible every single day! No excuse. I am breaking my rule of not touching the computer on Sundays, but only for a bit in order to read the verse. I make the rules, so I can break them - at least that's my motto.

But even with the daily interaction with the bible, I still feel like something is missing.

Don't get me wrong, it's not God that I miss. I know He is here with me. That alone gives me peace. What I am looking for is knowledge.And with that comes understanding. I am not a big doubter but I can get off the path a little. That's why they keep saying that we all need God. It's true.

We used to have home groups and meet every week, or every other week, to discuss a part or portion of the bible. That involves reading the bible and talk about it and pray about it. I mean, all one needs for a relationship with Jesus. (Yes, of course, there were social actions included as a plus, but still God was there with us.)
Then we used to have bible studies for the women of the church - you know the weekly kind with a DVD and a book and homework and God. It was fun and I learned soooo much from it. It's gone. I used to give me more faith when I could put puzzle pieces together by learning more and more.

So now I am a bit at a loss here and feel like I need some catching-up. Catching-up with what God has to say to me, today. I want to hear from Him and what He has to say because I believe what was true back in the days when the bible was written is still true today. Parables from Jesus are as applicable in life today. God still is not finished with me and I just want more....

Yes, it's a bit my own fault because I am not very good at self-motivation. I need the pressure from someone or somewhere to get me going. I never thought of myself as a procrastinator but lately, observing myself, I have to admit that I have become one. Big time! I don't know when it happened, but I think it had something to do with having children....

So I think I need to add to my list of resolutions to undo the procrastinator thingy. And find a new group of people that would like to interact on behalf of the bible - meaning: a bible study group!

An afterword from yesterday's post:
today's verse:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)


C. Beth said...

I miss having some sort of study group too. :)

Leslie said...

Beth pointed me to yor blog on one of hers. I agree. You get so busy doing all kinds of stuff and it's hard to see how you'd fit in one more thing, but I miss it too.