16 March 2011

The Mami I want to be...

It's been a little crazier around here than normal -but then again, what is normal? Last week, I had to prepare for the baby shower at my house. Then I had to clean after it as well. Now my focus is on the Ladies' Tea that is coming up at the end of the month. So it feels like I am running around alot. Dragging the kids with me, of course.

So when my plans for today got canceled, it was kind of.... nice. Because I could stay home all day! Yep, you heard it right, all day. No make-up-day, I call it. So my face gets a break, and so does the gas budget.... (hahaha). Well, but there is an even better reason to be happy about today:

I could spend quality time with the kids, or at least, majorly, Coqui.

Homeschooling has been pushed to the side a little, so we picked up on that today, with two sessions instead of just one. I had bought books and workbooks while on vacation, and we are using them now. Phonics, Reading, Maths, .... etc. Yes, I am even trying the book "Teach Your Child To Read In 100 Easy Lessons". So we started today... let's see if it really works.

But after all the work he had to do, I just simply played with him. Anything he wanted was fine with me. I just wanted him to feel like I am still his Mami, still loving him, having time just for him, even if I am a little busier than usual. I don't want to be the mom (in his memory) that had never time, that always rather cleaned than played with her kids. I don't want to be that mom. I want to be the fun mom that actually was around her kids. I want to be the mom that played with them, that did impromtu picknicks on the kitchen floor, that laughs out loud with them, and yes, that gets all messy (once in a while) and has lots of fun. That's who I want them to remember me by.

Cleaning is necessary but one or two days later will be just the same. And it was the perfect day to prove that to him. 
Even at bedtime, when he asked me to stay a little longer, after I read to him and sang to him, I did. It could always be the last time... no-one knows.... so I just wanted to be there for him. Today.

I know that he liked his day, because he listened better and he was more cuddly at bedtime.


C. Beth said...

Great post...by a great Mami. :)

SurvivorBlessing said...

Thank you, C.Beth.